101 things about me

1. Drake Shade is my darker emotions.
2. I have three sisters and two brothers.
3. My favorite game is the wolf among us.
4. I love the lord of the rings series.
5. My favorite food is chicken fried steak.
6. My favorite book series is Cirque du freak.
7. I love poetry.
8. I love chess.
9. I want to be a video game designer.
10. I make videos in my free time.
11. I love reading.
12. I love writing.
13. I listen to a lot of alternative and classic rock.
14. I'm not good with making decisions on my own.
15. My weakness is that I am hard headed.
16. I'm insanely afraid of being something i'm not.
17. My favorite band of all time would be drowning pool.
18. I don't get along with my big sister.
19. My favorite among my siblings is the one whose always there, my brother-in-law Colby.
20. I like to draw.
21. I have trouble with feeling anything.
22. I usually do things without thinking.
23. I find it really to comfortable to lay down listening to music while reading a book.
24. I like to see my friends happy, so I usually do what I can to make them feel better.
25. I am very selfish.
26. I love sleeping a lot.
27. Thinking a lot makes me depressed.
28. I usually write horror stories and poems about my inner thoughts or my sense on human nature.
29. I like to play any kind of poker.
30. I'm careless.
31. I like to shut off my feelings a lot so I can take it all out on my writing.
32. When I write, I tend to lose sight of the things around me, then come back to reality after its done.
33. My favorite song would be "Feel like I do" by Drowning pool.
34. When I do think, I like to do it by myself, I don't really like the idea of putting my problems on someone else.
35. I don't like being a burden.
36. I don't forget and forgive more like I just remember and forgive, cant lie to yourself what they've done.
37. I like having control.
38. I'm a neat freak.
39. I don't ask myself why things happen, I just ask why do I let them happen.
40. My friend Brenda is really the only person who gets me.
41. I don't really like losing people I love.
42. Death scares me.
43. I have a habit of walking on my tip toes.
44. I dislike people ruining my games.
45. I learn things better on my own.
46. I hate making mistakes.
47. I like watching anime.
48. I like to read manga.
49. I like to play video games.
50. My favorite console would have to be any of the PlayStations.
51. I tend to overthink things when I am mad.
52. The hardest game I've ever played was Demon Souls.
53. I hated my middle school years.
54. My best friends are David North and Elijah Harris.
55. I don't get along with people I don't know unless someone I know knows them.
56. A lot of my inspiration is from music.
57. I have band named Devils Syndicate.
58. I don't ever really feel like I have to study.
59. I don't like objective things.
60. My favorite subjects at school are English and Math.
61. My least favorite would be History.
62. My Dad is who I look up to, someone I want to be like.
63. My favorite poet would be my father, we write about the same things.
64. I have problems being compassionate.
65. Halloween is my favorite holiday.
66. Fall is my favorite season.
67. I don't like opening up to people.
68. I don't get along with very emotional people.
69. I dislike talking about my past.
70. My parents are good people.
71. I don't like most of my uncles, but I love most of my aunts.
72. I have anger issues.
73. The three main things I care about is my family, my best friends and stability.
74. I don't like feeling guilty or taking the blame for things I cant help.
75. I don't like faking feelings.
76. I like playing role playing games.
77. I like playing strategy games.
78. My favorite game on PC would be either Garry's mod or Amnesia the dark decent.
79. I like things being in alphabetical order.
80. Algebra is a lot better then Geometry.
81. My favorite manga would be Dogs: Bullets and Carnage.
82. My favorite anime would be Code Geass.
83. I ignore a lot of the problems in my life.
84. I am ignorant when it comes to social events.
85. I don't know how to act at funerals.
86. I cry rarely.
87. I like baby sitting my little cousins.
88. I work at my aunt Kim's flea market.
89. When it comes to making decisions I feel lost.
90. I talk to my mother when I feel that way.
91. When I sing I imagine the scene of the song I wrote.
92. Any game is really easy for me once I've mastered the controls.
93. I love having long hair.
94. I like wearing suits.
95. My favorite drink would be Pepsi or Lemonade tea.
96. I'm very protective of my younger siblings.
97. A song that would describe my life would be "Vendetta" by Deligma
98. I practice singing a lot when i'm alone at the house.
99. The game that i'm best at is The Darkness 1 and 2.
100. I am 17 and feel the oldest out of my siblings.
101. I love to sing.

Monsters

Scratching at the doors, clawing at the floors. Drowning in the rivers of tears, pulling me further to the darkness of one's fears. No need to fight, it's all going to be alright. Swimming up for air, to a world that drowns you without a care. It's air poisonous, it's agriculture filled with pus. Accompanied by maggots and black skies, that's the world in my eyes.

A wolf's tale

Cold reflection they tell no lies, but eyes just scratch the surface. Dont shake me, don't make me bear my teeth you really don't want to meet that guy. Don't wake me, don't let me off the leash, there's a monster living under this hide. The fairytales are dead, try not to lose your head. Wolf in sheep's clothing, intoxicated by the loathing. Whose evading the skin clad wolf? I hope the spoils were worth it. Now the beasts fires been lit, you know what you've done, so start to run. Petulant thorn in your side, awakening the beast inside. Won't listen to a word you say, so get the hell out of my way. Breaking the prison and cracking the cage, unleashing this beast full of rage.

Falsify.

I need some room to breathe, because I've lost all I believe. Like a bratty little child, going rabid and wild. Foaming out my mouth and pouring out my eyes, tired of all the lies. I'm choking, please tell me your joking. Just strike me down with your light, I won't fight. Send me to the darkest depths, filled with torment to the sinners since their deaths. Tear my skin with the lake of fires chains, continue these back pains. Something to feel other then lost, please whatever the cost. I'm done being him and i, tired of life being a lie. Words that are never really heard, are better described with one word. False.

Promise land

The way you used to feel, when you didn't know if it was all real. Always with a world you picture to see, where everyone's running free. No war just happiness consumed by the suns light, to see all the wrongs and one day make a right. To do something new, to see the sky is truly white and blue. A place without hate, where the living all can relate. A true paradise, almost as transparent as ice. Melting away with your dreams, burning with the world's painful screams. The world that was foretold, sold out with lies and gold. All for lustful intent, left in a world where no one wants to repent. This is the world that be, always home to me.

Insanity

I made your head ache, like a devil in your mind I make your heart break. Oh you know I like to do what I please, like a bullet in a gun I'll just give it a squeeze. You know I'm careless but it's all in the fun, like flying towards to the sun. Be your morphine going straight to your head, seeing nothing but the red. Cry, lie. Get on a knee, and plea. Either way I'm out, so rot and pout. The voices telling me to stop, to make this feeling in my chest to pop. Talking to yourself to contemplate, deciding your own fate. To live or die there's no difference, because living just to die doesn't make sense.

Life

The flames of hell consuming for that dreadful fee, with nothing but the darkness that be. Accepting it at whatever cost, sad but true another soul lost. Blood consuming our name, with the world left to blame. To burn, to twirl and turn. When the whole world is coming after you, and there's nothing left you can do. It won't be long, when your dead and gone. Even when it's all said and done, there's nothing left to run. Cuts and rings alike, at the end of the pike. On the edge where we lay, just to wake up to the same thing every day.